Compassion of the Self


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IMG_1584A couple of months ago, I went through a relationship transition with someone and we decided to work on a friendship together. Having shared so much, it seemed the right thing to do; why terminate a strong bond, especially if you are able to move on pretty quickly in other factors of the relationship? As time progressed though, it became apparent that much of the interaction was one-sided and looping, causing continual miscommunication, sadness and pain for both parties. As much as I wanted that person to be in my life, ultimately I had to let them go because of the negative impact they were having on my growth.

They did not do something specific, nor malicious. Just the act of them also trying to move on, caused colliding waves of unease, in the same way two stones thrown into a river, will create momentum which inevitably interacts in often chaotic ways, with the ripples from each others wake. At this point you have to make the decision, “How much personal pain am I willing to accept in the near-term, for the hope of a deeper connection in the future.” So I did make a choice and it came from a surprising perspective. Continue reading


Why I’m Breaking Habit and Training For My 4th Camino


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Pyrenees, France - September 22nd 2013 - 23For all my previous Caminos, I’d done zero training; no extra walking and hiking and was overweight for each of them.  I’ve had this discussion with others who have completed the walk about training for it and we all agreed; you can’t train for what it is meant to be and you don’t need to train, as long as you can walk (and keep walking).  Sure, some of the times I was there it’s been more difficult than it should be but you get better everyday, drop inches off your waistline and start slow enough that you engage with others.  But this time is different. Continue reading

Fasting Mimicking Diet – Round 1


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I’ve done a few gateway diets over the last year including juicing and the Whole 30 but this time wanted to do something a little different that didn’t take such a long period of time or preparation.  I had toyed with the idea of a 5 day water fasting before but while looking up for more information on it’s pros and cons, I came across a Rich Roll episode with Dr Joel Khan which indirectly, got me to the quantifiedbob site.


I ended up for the most part, following the quantifiedbob plan, with a few modifications. Day 1 aside, most of the macronutrient splits were close to the ideal but for the next time I do this in a month, I’ll increase the food slightly to get closer to 800 calories per day.  I’m looking to repeat the 5 days on/25 days off for the next 2 months to see how my bloodworm ends up, so this first effort was more of an experiment on how my body would deal with such an extreme. If you’re curious as to what my solid meals looked like, here’s a few of them:


And now on to the details/results…
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